October 29th, 2009...

I'm sitting at the kitchen table with my box of oil paints, dirty brushes, and paint pallet tupperware boxes everywhere. This painting is due at 3:00 pm today and i'm not finished yet. Mostly because I don't like it; I can tell the proportions are off but I just assume that no one in my class will notice. Yuck.

I also have a meteorology test to do sometime before Sunday. I guess I should do it tomorrow before I go to MIA to see the Louvre show (which I am psyched for by the way!). Following that I may get dinner but I'm unsure if I'll have time so I also may just go to the Triple Rock for Motion City Soundtrack directly after MIA.

MOTION CITY SOUNDTRACK! I'm so excited =))

Then it's Halloween and I will work from 11:00 to 4:30, draw tattoos on Collin, and then dominate the town as Wonder Woman.

A+ weekend.

October 21st, 2009...

@The Triple Rock Friday the 30th of October; I'm going. =)

THUMBS UP!

October 19th, 2009...

Marty Martin, originally uploaded by Melissa is Magenta.

I miss my baby, Marty =(
I get to see mom and Scott this weekend though which should be supreme. Grocery shopping, winter coat shopping, hopefully those 15 dollar moccasins from Payless in Shopko- 10% off bitches!!!

So anyway, art history test tomorrow and meteorology quizzes tonight; until this weekend I'm going to go ahead and declare a FML.

Except for the fact that Motion City Soundtrack's new cd, Dinosaur Life comes out tomorrow. Justin Pierre- be my best friend!

October 17th, 2009...

The Language of Love at The Fish, originally uploaded by Ahmad Alnejadah.

Hi old love,
I haven't forgotten you and you know this.

Whenever you're ready; I am too.
I want to jump in but I only trust you in this crazy sea.
You've always been the only fish here; I know.

October 16th, 2009...

Hi,
I know I've been harsh, I'm really sorry. The truth is I'm only being so mean because you made me sad. I really had some pretty strong feelings for you and you made it seem like yours disappeared on the exact day we broke up.

It makes me sad to listen to acoustic guitar and violin.
It makes me upset when I catch myself moving my hands or singing beats when I'm listening to my ipod in a public place; because you do that too.
I am confused about my life and what to major in and it would be nice to have someone to talk to about it.
I want to barge in and get the mugs I've left up there but I don't know if Kayla will be there. I don't think she's there often? But since that night I think you care more about her than me. Sad, but I wouldn't be surprised if you really liked her because I know you have before...
Sorry I made out with your friend, it was the only way I could think to handle the situation. At least you didn't have to watch...
It makes me sad to think other girls have been in your room now who aren't me. Please don't take my art down!
I want a hug.


I'm unhappy with this situation. I'm afraid to call you and say sorry because it's Thursday night at 2:11 in the morning and I'm sure you're under the influence of something. I also think you owe me an apology as well. Watching the first boy I've dated for more than a month in a very long time make out with a girl who has always been rude and fake to me is not enjoyable. Not to mention you telling me I "didn't have to be there" afterward wasn't exactly a treat. Despite this, I really really hope we can talk about this soon- I miss you.

Hug time now.

October 15th, 2009...

Hey moron,
you're stressing me owwt.

dislike.

i can't get over you like you got over me, oh so quickly.
but thank you for letting me know how much you really cared about me.

p.s. i passed my portfolio review with flying colors today, jerkface. i might switch my major to a BFA in fine arts because the teachers think i'm too advanced for art ed. i want to tell you but i don't want to talk to you first because you really hurt me; i want you to say sorry and MEAN it.

sometime when you aren't high would be nice?

October 11th, 2009...

last night was a doozy.
i don't like ted at all anymore; we're not friends. especially not today.

he's not even cute to me anymore.

Dear Ted,
sometimes you smell bad.

p.s. halloween is coming up; katie's working on my costume right now. =)
supreme.

October 8th, 2009...

THIRSTY THURSDAY!
i'm not going out tonight; i feel bloated today.

today i turned in my portfolio review application and essay! my interview is next wednesday- i am terrified. i hope i'm accepted into the education program! that would be supreme.


that's me working on my shoe-chair for portfolio review. i think i look old... this is the only picture where i don't hate having a fat face because it makes me look a little bit older!

so anyway, my goal this beautiful homecoming weekend is to find a cute alternative boy who likes death cab for cute and motion city soundtrack. if he wears glasses- plus. if he wears converse- plus. if he wears scarves- WIN.
dear cute boy out there, find me this weekend and smile at me please.


is this pathetic?

i'm okay with that.

October 7th, 2009.2...

geezes, isn't he great?
yes, i think so too. =)

i hope he remembers me the next time i see him. because he definitely has talked with me more than once.

i wish we were bff's.

October 7th, 2009...

that is what i feel is happening to me right now!!! AGGGHGHGH.

the good news is I finished my shoe-chair for my portfolio review =)
one positive of the day!

P.S. October 6th, 2009...

I did a painting for my painting class last week...
here you are folks.



I don't know these guys but the assignment was to paint a subject that we didn't know. I couldn't pass that up so I definitely painting some guys on a train. I'm working on my oil painting though- these guys look way too cartoon-y.

October 6th, 2009...

Attention Readers: Bump-its are the most meaningless waste of plastic I've ever seen.

That is all.

October 4th, 2009...

Hi,
I know you're smoking on your balcony and you're about to read this.
I'm sorry for anything hurtful you read but I want you to know that you hurt me despite what I don't say to you.

I can't just press a "stop" button on love. The fact that you can is sad and tells me that it wasn't that real in the first place. I hope you have/had fun with whoever else you've been with since me.

I hope we can be friends. I know I'm upset about this breakup, but I know you aren't for me. If you ever decide to put me before weed then let me know. <3

I'm done forever talking about you, getting hurt is a waste of my time.

October 3rd, 2009...

Nevermind- I'm over it.
=)

But seriously I want a cute skinny boy with glasses who wears Converse and plays in a band that actually has shows. One that makes art too would be awesome.
Maybe I'll make a poster for the art department.

Although, I don't want to date anyone for awhile. Flirting it up is okay with me as long as I get a snuggle every once in awhile...

Anyway, I'm sick and I don't appreciate it. My nose is out of control and my throat hurts! BBLAH not fun; I want to enjoy fall time!

October 3rd, 2009; Shopko here I come!

October 2nd, 2009...

Today is Ted's birthday but he spend the night at the girl's house who he's previously wanted to spend his nights at. I know because they came in together last night at Jared's. So, I left with Andy; but nothing happened. Unfortunately, I hope he thinks it does. I also know because he has my cell phone and I called Brett to see if he was upstairs so I could get it and he said, "he's at Kayla's I think..."

I know I shouldn't care. I also don't want to care. But I know what they did and it's kind of upsetting. He's just an asshole. If he couldn't give up smoking weed even a little bit for me then it's not even worth it.

WHY DO I CARE.
buggggggh.

He's not my problem anymore; he's someone elses, right? I deserve a nice boy with glasses who appreciates art and likes my singing voice to car radios. <3