November 29th, 2009...

ShopKo - Rochester, Minnesota, originally uploaded by Sponge1987/ShopKoFan.

Eff my life. I can't believe how much time I spent at this worthless store in the past 4 days. My entire back side is hurting and there is no cute boy here to relieve the pain. Although there was a cute boy that was here this weekend which I highly appreciated; which I doubt he knows. Thanksgiving weekend was alright. I sold many EPPs (extended protection plans) aka bullshit warranties on hair straighteners and coffee makers, and kissed a cute boy.

Even though I mainly HATED this weekend, seeing my family and another appreciated someone really made it good. Thanks you guys =) MOM I love you, thanks for the baby Christmas tree.

November 28th, 2009...

Today sucked. Shopko made sure of that!

I'm now laying in a freshly made bed of clean organic sheets. Incredibly comfortable and soft, I love you earth friendly.

Dear cute boy I have a crush on,
That was not revenge, that was real life. You're cute. I like your green hat a lot. If you lived here I would ask you to hold my hand while we went for a walk in the snow.

I would really like that situation, if you would.

November 28th, 2009...

Today sucked. Shopko made sure of that!

I'm now laying in a freshly made bed of clean organic sheets. Incredibly comfortable and soft, I love you earth friendly.

Dear cute boy I have a crush on,
That was revenge, that was real life. You're cute. I like your green hat a lot.
If you lived here I would ask you to hold my hand while we went for a walk in the snow.

I like that situation =)

November 23rd, 2009...

Mom, originally uploaded by Melissa is Magenta.

I can't wait for it to snow after Thanksgiving so I can go home and get a Christmas tree with the Momzilla and Scott. On Pandora.com I'm listening to the "Mannheim Steamroller" channel... (sigh) I sure miss my mom driving me to school at 6:45am when I didn't have my license yet. She would put on Mannheim Steamroller and we would sing the beats together and I would skip the songs that were sad so she wouldn't cry and think of grandma. Talking about this right now is making me tear up enough. Now that I'm more than 200 miles away from her I don't care that she made me get up at 5:30 in the morning so that she could be to work on time. I don't care that traffic was bad after school was done when she came to pick me up because I will never forget that time I spent with her. I miss her lots and lots now even though I talk to her almost everyday. Even being able to hear her say "I have to call you back, I'm in a meeting! I love you bye!" is totally okay with me.

I know that everyone thinks they have a rockin' parent. Whether you think you have the best mom in the world or the best dad or even the best grandparents. It's all false. I, Melissa, do have the best mom in the world.

I remember moments I shared with my mom when I was younger that I'll try to repeat someday when I have children of my own. She's always believed in me no matter what the situation, even when I was wrong. Thanks mom, you're my favorite person in the world and I appreciate you and our friendship more than you could ever know. I LOVE YOU! Thanks for always trying as hard as you can to make life livable for me and sorry for taking it for granted when I was younger. Without you I would never ever be the person I am right now.

P.S. I never told you that a month after we got the new carpet in the living room I got blue paint on my sock and tracked it onto the new white carpet. I got it most of it up before it sank in, thank God; but if you still look hard you can see where it was. It's in front of the couch on the right hand side. I'm really sorry and glad you never noticed. =)

November 22nd, 2009...

this just in, i'm not upset anymore. i went for a run this morning and i'm thinking it would be cool to do that several times a week! its funny how something so simple can change your whole outlook of life.

so a few days ago i moved up a size in my ear gauge to an 8. it easily went in without any pain so i as confused and thought that perhaps i was already at an 8? today i bought a 6g and i just tried to put it in; NO WAY JOSE. i'm excited for 2 weeks to go by so i can put these leopard print gauges in my ears =)

grandma will be displeased.

November 21st, 2009...

Hello world,
I have some pretty intense things to say tonight so if you aren't ready for that than I suggest you press the "back" button pretty darn quick because here I go. I will now eliminate capitol letters to let my emotions flow freely from brain, to fingers, to computer screen.

i often feel like i don't belong here. what am i doing even majoring in anything when people think painting as a major is "EASY" those bastards. i know for a fact they can't paint. its far from easy. also, am i getting too strange looking that boys don't even like me anymore? is my personality displeasing because i don't understand what i'm doing wrong. when i get this stressed it makes me want to eat and then after i eat i feel really bad and i stress out again! i'm unsure of what to do (p.s. if anyone has gone through this, help me out. what do i do) anyway so i'm sick of school, i'm sick of asshole guys, and i'm sick of not being motivated in any area of my life.

i'm just really upset tonight internet. i think i'm going to cry.

thanks for always listening though

November 12th, 2009...

I'm at home and I strongly appreciate it. I found the baby book my mom kept after I was born and this exactly line almost made me cry;

"Melissa gets all over walking and does great, also gets up on things a lot, NOT AFRAID OF ANYTHING."

thanks mom =)
I love you.

November 11th, 2009...

11/11 at 11:11 today you will be extra extra lucky =) make a good wish.

I'm at Jules Coffee House in my favorite place in the whole wide world, La Crosse, WI.
everything bad goes away when I come home. I love this lame little town and this tiny coffee shop. SIGH OF RELIEF.

Thanks La Crosse, for always having my back and best interest in mind.

November 9th, 2009...

I think I'm giving up on my online meteorology class.

There is no way I can pass this bullshit class, I'm a damned painting major folks!
I usually don't give up but COME ON I really can't do this and do work and do 15 other credits.

FML. =(

November 8th, 2009...

I'm going home this weekend for the first time since August and guess what... I'm going to see this ridiculous band that I've appreciated since about 7th grade.

I'M SO PSYCHED!

that is all for now. =)

October 5th, 2009...

I just looked at the calender for the date; that was silly of me because I just paid a parking ticket that went up to 20 dollars after the 5th. Good thing I only had to pay 10 dollars.

I'm in the art building right now waiting for my painting class to start. It might be fun but I doubt it. My ipod is about to die and I forgot to put on some good painting jams.

Last night I stayed up until 3:30 documenting my tired state every hour for an art project. I also studied intensely for my Human Growth and Development class that I thought I would fail if I didn't do well on this test. I am glad to report I knew every answer on the test! I hope the neighboring boy didn't copy my answers. Actually, if he did that's okay because I always wish I had someone who knew all the right answers to copy from!

So anyway, since I stayed up all night and got up early to study I'm definitely lacking on the sleep aspect of my life right now. In other words, I want some. I told my group partner that I was with prior to the writing of this blog that I was skipping my painting class and going home to eat and go to bed, but I apparently lied because here I am about to go to class.

Who said you can't paint on an empty stomach and no sleep?
I'm an artist, those are the kind of conditions I should be constantly living in.