It's been awhile, readers.
Today Ted and I have been dating for 5 months. WOW MOM. cool... even though I feel like we haven't been lately because I hardly ever see him; but that's okay because he's moving here soon and I'll see him all too often.
I was just listening to Gonna Make You Sweat by C&C Music Factory, which is a pretty ridiculous song. Sometimes when it comes on and Katie is here I turn it up really loud and pretend I'm the one saying "everybody dance now!" She laughs a lot. I was then thinking, that's probably not that funny. The only person I would ever laugh at singing that song is... my dad. Then I got to thinking how much I really am like my dad. He used to be caring, funny (hilarious actually), and he put others before himself. I bet we were really similar when we were this age and that freaks me out. I know he had lots of friends and he liked to party, but he always had people there to support him. Then he turned into a self absorbed, crazy, pot smoking, anti-dad who doesn't care about absolutely anyone or anything besides weed, how he will get it, and where he will smoke it. Everyday that's all he thinks about. Not me, not his brothers and sisters, not his life; just weed. He pushed away his wife (now ex), his second wife (also now his ex), his brothers and sisters, his friends, and now me. Should I even bother bringing a child into this world? Am I going to make them go through what I had to with my dad?
Knock me out before I become like him.
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