December 26th, 2009...

Hello everyone,
today I leave for Minneapolis, only to follow up with a long flight to Mexico. How supreme is that?! The only lame part is that before I came home for Christmas I discovered that I had lost 5 pounds due to exercise and good eating habits! Now I'm right back where I was due to tasty Christmas food and over-eating. That's okay though, it was super good and I feel like it will come off again when I get back to Cloud.
This sucks though; I have about 10 people I want to hang out with in La Crosse but there's one certain boy I would rather spend all of my time with in St. Cloud. Thankfully, this week he will also be going far away from here so we coincidentally picked the same week to travel. We're getting back on the same day= ridiculous.

I got some bomb gifts today and same pretty bad ones.
Top 5 best gifts of today:
1. FISH. EYE. LENS (best gift ever)
2. camera bag
3. moneys for Mexico
4. gift cards
5. Harry Potter 1-6

Top 5 worst gifts of today:
1. Puffy white hoody with two fuzzy balls at the end of the drawstring
2. Argyle sweater, Arizona brand.
3. Microwaveable walnuts
4. Puffy white socks
5. Seasonal beanie baby. (really grandma...)

So there we are. Good things, bad things, returnable things...
My mom also saw my tattoo for the first time today. "Melissa, what is that?" "What mom?" "Is that a REAL tattoo?" "No........." "Tell the truth." "Yes mom, but it's Andy Warhol! You know what he means to me!" "I know Melissa, it's okay it's your body. I'm not mad I love you!" AWESOME! I love you too mom!

Today also marks the day I realize my like for this guy and how much it will genuinely suck when he leaves. The lamezor part is that I actually am super unsure if he is really mutually feeling this or just saying that to be polite while he's in Minnesota. Either way, I can smell his smell and I know what his nose fits like next to my nose. I've never slept so soundly next to anyone in my life. Not that I've slept next to a lot of people but, really. We've fallen asleep with our noses touching like twice now and usually I would get pissed and roll over, but we last that way almost all night. If we don't, one of us ends up with our arms around the other. SO CUTE. So anyway, I hope he shows me that he really cares sometime... That would be bomb and appreciated. The only time I think he likes me is when we're alone. =/ but oh well, he does live in another state 3/4 of the time.

SO ANYWAY let's break this down...
Merry Christmas. Good gifts. Mexico tomorrow. Super tan. Cute boy I like. What's up!

December 23rd, 2009...

Okay, so it's not really the 23rd, but I know I won't write this tomorrow and I feel I should keep the following internet world updated. Therefore, no one will read this ever. Anyway, tomorrow I wake up early so I can head to work for a few hours and then drive to La Crosse! WOO I can't wait =) First it's fun times with friends, then it's fun times with mom, then Christmas time with family, then a day to think about all the cool stuff I got for christmas and hang out with friends, then it's MEXICOOOOHH!

I'm excited today for these reasons:
1. Home Alone is on tv right now; hilarious.
2. The boy is in Minnesota and I am loving every second with him. Too bad we will now be parted for more than a week starting tomorrow. I can't believe we've literally seen each other everyday since he's been home. I like.
3. I weighed myself before I ate dinner, just because I hadn't for awhile, and I lost like 4/5 pounds! I thought that was strange so I weighed myself after I ate and it was the same. AWESOME!
4. I get to go home and see Aaron, Tripp, Tyler & Troy, MOM AND SCOTT, and my kitties.
5. CHRISTMAS DINNER.
6. Mexico
(sub-category)
-tan
-cute Mexican boys
-ridiculous things I'll never need
-tan
-beach in a bikini
-tan tan tan.
7. New Years Eve.

This is so awesome, I can't believe it. DREAMS DO COME TRUE!

See everyone soon! =)

December 22nd, 2009...

I'm having the best week. Aside from working of course...

Dear cute boy,
I would love to snuggle you every chance I got. I can't believe we both have freckles on our right hands. I've literally never met ANYONE ELSE in my life with one in the same spot as me. I can't believe it. =)

Sorry for waking you up at 6:30, I'm unsure of what came over me but I hope it was okay.

Shopko time. Yuck.
Painting time later; woo!

December 18th, 2009... 2.0

THE SUSPENSE IS KILLING ME!

December 18th, 2009...

Finals done. Friday night. Cute boy weekend. Mexico in 9 days. Christmas in 7. Yes please.

Tonight is a night for festivities, alcohol, funny pictures, and friends.

I would like to start with this ridiculous song that I'm listening to. Make fun of it at your own pleasure


Next, I would like to say something to you cute boy I like from far away.

things would be better, IF YOU WERE HERE!

I'm excited to see you, because your nice and smart and appreciative of art and very cute. Hurry your butt up. =)

December 17th, 2009...

I'M DONE WITH FIRST SEMESTER!
Time for cute boy, concerts, Mexico, family, Christmas, best friends, and lots of art making!
I started my art making today with a quick sketch of a friend. =)


Time for sleep!
Shalom my friends.

December 16th, 2009...

I'm blogging at 3:30 AM. I could be sleeping since I'm not really doing homework but, I might as well just stay up now. I just made coffee anyway. So since it's 3:30 it's techinically Thursday. Just so you know I'm titling this as the 16th because I'm sure I'll want to blog later about how happy I am that finals are over.

I I I me me me.

How are you doing?

I want everyone to know I'm recently addicted to cameroid.com since I don't have a mac. I know, it's a shame. Anyway I used cameroid.com to express how I feel at this moment in the morn.


So, there are my art history notecards. Eff my life right? The final is at 7:30 AM. YUCK. My, how will I make it through this morning and stay awake? We'll find out.

"You don't have the steady hands or the technology to pull off a procedure like that so ha- PEACE"

Study Break

I GREW A MUSTACHE!


Clearly unsure about how I feel about it...


You always appreciate something more once it's gone!


It's back!


HA- fooled you guys.


I'm just a nice normal girl...


who really likes what she's wearing today.

Okay, that's enough. No more fake mustaches or talking of leggings: time for art history. Bleh.

December 15th, 2009...

I'm currently in the library coming incredibly close to finishing all of the writing I need to do this week. The man sitting in my direct view approximately 15 feet in front of me just ate a kitkat bar faster than I've ever seen anyone eat one before. Now it is on to an energy drink and to try and add a food group I assume, a cheese stick. What a finals meal. Today I had a cheese quesadilla the size of a cd... oh my. time for foods.

So anyway, as I'm sitting here working on homework I decided I should have a new years resolution. Here it is: I Melissa, will be content with myself; body, mind, and all. I will also find and dance to the best music I've ever heard in my life. I also vow to have the best summer I've ever had.

There it is =) doing it.
Guess what, it's Tuesday... Do you know what that means?
Cute boy. Almost here.

Also while sitting here I discovered another painting I need to do sometime in the next year. I, of course, took a picture of it on my phone so I would remember it always.

There it is, I like it.

So anyway, time to finish this intro and conclusion. =)

December 14th, 2009...

I'm currently beginning a 6 page paper. I just finished my journals for Human Growth and Development, FINALLY. I can only think of all the things I need to do and how much time it's going to take. This is rough. Despite this I'm trying to think optimistically. With that being said, I am playing MPR and burning "fizzy pop" insense which smells INSANELY like the fizz on top of 7up, awesome. It's also relatively clean in my room, although it could still use some more work.

After I'm finished with my finals and getting drunk on Thursday (ha) I'm going to begin some art making and it will be glorious. I'm finishing a light house for my mom on watercolor paper in watercolor pencil and paint. Then I'll be finishing my converse diptych which should be adorable and supreme; although, I can't decide which medium to paint it in yet. THEN I'll be working on an oil painting of a portrait for a nice man who I used to work with at Michaels who was so utterly happy that my mother and I brought in one of my paintings to be framed, that he told me he would pay me for any portrait in oil I chose to do. His name is Mark and he's very nice.

So that kind of sounds like a lot of work and you might be asking, "Melissa don't you need to take a break from all of this school you've been doing?" The answer is no, painting is a break for me as long as it's not assigned! I'm thrilled.

I'll keep you updated on my painting progress.
Until tomorrow!

P.S. December 13th, 2009...

i went up another gauge size again today; the next size is the same size as my 3B drawing pencil. i thought i wasn't going up this high when i started.

but i like it because i feel rebellious!

December 13th, 2009...

Good morning, it's 8:30 am and I am awake. Cleaning my room to some craazy music and I thought i had to share.



i hope you love it and groove in your chair. =)

December 12th, 2009...

geez, i sure made a fool of myself last night via my cell phone. i went out for a little pre-finals celebration and of course got king's cup which topped me off to a high point of embarrassment. not only was i one of those dumb people who walked more than a mile in the freezing cold, i collaborated with my friend on some pretty insane dance moves to daft punk. last night was a holes hall situation and it was bomb; props on a good night everyone.

so this morning i'm thinking about dancing and singing a lot. in thinking about this i thought i would share some interesting videos that may or may not be appreciated. check these out and see if you can find me =)



that's showchoir from 2007/my junior year of high school. we won almost every competition and i sincerely miss it every aspect of it. looking back it's okay that we had "hell week" with 12 hour days of dancing and singing and i'm okay with the fact that we had to travel everywhere during days we had off. the work that came with it was insanely intense, despite what anyone thinks or says. i wouldn't change any of that experience for anything in the world



here's "a boy and a girl" by central's robed choir. if this doesn't give you chills, you don't have a soul! we were damn good.

aside from the fact that i was in two incredible musical groups for a good chunk of my life and i miss it entirely, these people are wonderful. despite that we haven't all sang together for 3 or 2 years i know that if we were all together again it would be like nothing changed. we would be ready for esser's instruction in a minute and if he told us to stop talking, we would stop talking and perhaps even feel guilty about it.

i love that i was in this. thanks esser!

okay time for finals work!!!

December 11th, 2009...

Hi world
I don't like today. I am tired, have lots of homework, and I feel like I ate too much ALREADY and it's only 12 in the afternoon. I hate feeling like I can't eat what I want to... I had cereal and a baby bag of popcorn the size of... a pillow for a gerbil. i also maybe had a tiny bit of frozen yogurt... BUT IT'S FROZEN YOGURT! that's what i'm telling myself and that's what normal people would probably say, but i don't care if it's 3 times healthier than ice cream with no fat and way less calories... i still feel like i shouldn't have.

=(
i wish i felt like i was looking top notch but i don't.
like... ever.

i also wish i didn't think this because i know that it's unappealing. aside from that, in almost every situation i would say, "do what you want! live your life!" but this is one i can't say for myself. if someone else would have eaten what i had i would have said, hey no big deal! but since i'm like triple as hard on myself as everyone else this is not the case.

i wish i could see what others claim i'm so terribly wrong about. X/
DISLIKE!

Important Art Bulletin.

I think this is after 4 hours after I had all the petals and background finished


This could be about 6 or 7 hours...


and this is the completed piece. I'm unsure of it right now because I've been looking at it nonstop for almost 7 hours. Too bad I'm turning it in this afternoon or I would make some more changes. =/

perhaps at a later date when I'm not sleep deprived.

December 10th, 2009...

Coffee maker, I still love you. Mostly because its 2:30 AM and I still have at least 3 hours of painting left for this to look up to par.

In addition to my previous blog, no one is really bad at their own language. Thanks hormones... not. That was super harsh.

I will keep you updated on how the painting is going I guess.

I also hate headaches and when people leave food on the floor.

December 9th, 2009...

I feel like I'll be blogging a lot in the next week or so with finals coming up and all. Cool procrastination... whats up.

So I was incredibly irritated for a number of reasons on the way to campus earlier today.
1. To all the people who didn't shovel your sidewalks, you lazy assholes. It's hard to walk through 5 inches of snow! Especially when you're 5 feet tall.
2. To the boots I am currently wearing, you are cute but so useless. I might as well be wearing ice skates. I hardly picked my feet up off the ground, and I hate that, because if I did I would slip.
3. To all of the people who didn't slow down for me to cross the street. You are in your nice 70 degree car and I am in 10 degree weather. Lets be a little more selfish shall we?
4. To my Human Growth and Development teacher, I walked all the way to the education building to watch that terrible 3 hour movie for extra credit and you moved the room or time without posting it on D2L. Good job, thanks.
5. To my hair, thanks for being frizzy today. You're too long bangs of mine!
6. To my Combined Media class, I know you're going to take forever today because we have to critique everyone's half assed installations. Great... I don't care why you chose to do a paper cut out of our building and tape it to the door; I don't get it.
7. To my partner for the Critical Frameworks essay that's due on Monday. Hi, I don't know how to do an essay with another person and I particularly don't want to because I know you're not good at writing. You like your HP better than these beautiful Macs and you don't know how to make a powerpoint. I don't want to do this with you. I'll write it and you buy me alcohol. How about that?

Alright now that I'm done with that I would like to say thank you to a few things.
1. Thank you weather, this snow is beautiful. Last night after I came back from finishing my installation I ran through 3 yards all containing untouched snow. I was laughing and alone. It was magical and awesome.
2. Thank you coffee maker, without you I would not be as awake as I need to be. You're little with a lot of energy, just like me.
3. Thank you Pandora Radio, you're playing the best songs ever right now. I can't believe that I just heard Muse, OK Go, The White Stripes, Weezer, The Arctic Monkeys, Cake, and The Strokes in a row. It's okay that you played Gnarls Barkley, everyone makes mistakes.
4. Thank you library, for having these awesome computers that are under appreciated way too much. I love 'em.
5. Thank you nice boy, for keeping me on my toes the past couple of days. I like the situation we're in despite everyone's non-recognition of the subject. I'm glad we agree on the fact that it doesn't matter.

There we go. I'm in a better mood due to my list of thank you's. Now I'm going to do this outline for my Critical Frameworks essay by myself so I don't have to go through the annoyance of doing it with someone who's terrible at understanding the setup of an essay.

=)

December 8th, 2009...

I'm currently sitting in the back of my art history class. I just found out my final is next Thursday at 7:30 am, eff my life.

As people were coming into this class I've never wanted so bad for NO ONE to sit by me except my friend Ryan who knows I hate mornings and I don't want to talk or pretend to be nice to anyone. He just came in, late, as usual. I usually come in late with him. I'm pretty sure he felt rushed so he felt no need to come all the way back here to try and find me, unless he just doesn't care which is fine too.

So this guy came and talked to me; dislike.

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING ON YOUR LAPTOP!?"
"homework."
"you should follow the art history powerpoint melissa, that's bad."
"i don't care."

I hate mornings and I think he noticed, so he took his usual seat on the other side of the room. I know though that he doesn't care anything about Diego Rivera or Frida Kahlo and probably knows slim to none about them. Good luck on your final, friend.

I'm done ranting. See you tomorrow internets

December 7th, 2009...

I'm afraid of being afraid of a good thing. This is about when it begins to happen...

I hope I don't make a scene.

Sometimes I think I'm meant to be alone for the rest of my life. I don't think I'll ever settle down because I can never settle for anything.

The greatest guy I've met in a really long time and I'm terrified. Why?

Ex-boyfriend, I blame you. Thanks for taking a good thing and twisting it into a pretzel. Now I'm afraid that that will always happen to me... I'm a nice girl, why did you take advantage of my feelings like that?


I want my paintings back.

December 5th, 2009...

Today is my old best friend's birthday. She's 20. She was my first best friend when I was younger. Rachael lived down the street from me ever since I moved to Wisconsin from Chicago. I have countless memories of her up until we reached our freshman year of high school. I went to Central and she went to Logan. Her parents got divorced so she moved away and my dad went crazy so I moved away. Anyway, since middle school we hadn't really talked but she came up this year to visit me here in St. Cloud. She's definitely invited to my wedding, that's all I have to say about it.

Work was endless today but I think I made some people smile with my obviously fake demeanor. Clearly, they don't know me very well. I said this following line to at least over 200 people today though, here we go.

"HI! How are you doing? GOOD! Did you find everything okay? *don't say anything because saying "good" too many times makes it too obvious that I don't really care* Do you have our Shopko rewards card?!

the dialogue changes with their following responses; these are the normal answers.

"Yes I do actually! Just let me find it in here... *five minutes then passes of them struggling to find their stupid rewards card that won't save them any money anyway* I reply after this, "Well, I can actually look up your number in the computer if you don't want to look for your card!" (they give me their number and I finish the transaction) "OH I FOUND IT! HERE YA GO!"

or.

"No" I then occasionally pursue this response with the good Shopko push, "Oh! Well it's a free savings card that saves you money on several purchases and gives you 10 percent off on your birthday! Are you interested in starting one today?" While I'm doing this my smile is too big and they then realize that I could care less. They then decide it's okay to be an asshole in this situation and reply, "NO I don't have one and I don't want one. I have enough damn cards."

OR my favorite...

"Yeah but it won't do anything. What does it actually do anyway? Do I ever save money? I then reply, "Well, you can look in the ad and find what you can save on with the card by *holds up ad* these symbols. You also save 10 percent on your birthday!" This is completely true, but we usually have no rewards card sales on anything that any normal human being would need. If I could say what it really does, I would say this...

"The card actually does nothing, it's just something we ask to waste your life and ours. Shopko just takes your information so we can send you countless e-mails and send you our ads in the mail to piss you off. And you save 10 percent on your birthday."




I love my job.

December 4th, 2009...

I'm watching Factory Girl right now and it makes me realize just how bad I wish I knew Andy Warhol. We are so similar on our outlooks on life and the thoughts in our head. AGH I hope he knows. It also makes me realize how much of an asshole Bob Dylan was. Eff you Bob Dylan! ha

So anyway, I just want to give a good shout out to life right now.

Life,
Thank you for giving me what you have in the past couple months. I've had terrible experiences that helped me realize my morals and opinions on important subjects, great realizations of what I need to do with my life, and incredible passionate moments that I will never forget. Despite how much we all say we hate college and being here, without a doubt, this is the best time of my life.
Thank you
I will keep in touch,

Melissa

December 1st, 2009...

Hi Tyler.