December 11th, 2009...

Hi world
I don't like today. I am tired, have lots of homework, and I feel like I ate too much ALREADY and it's only 12 in the afternoon. I hate feeling like I can't eat what I want to... I had cereal and a baby bag of popcorn the size of... a pillow for a gerbil. i also maybe had a tiny bit of frozen yogurt... BUT IT'S FROZEN YOGURT! that's what i'm telling myself and that's what normal people would probably say, but i don't care if it's 3 times healthier than ice cream with no fat and way less calories... i still feel like i shouldn't have.

=(
i wish i felt like i was looking top notch but i don't.
like... ever.

i also wish i didn't think this because i know that it's unappealing. aside from that, in almost every situation i would say, "do what you want! live your life!" but this is one i can't say for myself. if someone else would have eaten what i had i would have said, hey no big deal! but since i'm like triple as hard on myself as everyone else this is not the case.

i wish i could see what others claim i'm so terribly wrong about. X/
DISLIKE!