February 11th, 2010

K, I'm bummed. Forreal.

The boy can't come home for Valentine's Day weekend. I understand this; tried to get home last weekend and didn't and can't get off work this weekend. Totally not his fault at all. Except that he should have asked off for this weekend instead of last! Another Valentine's Day alone... FAIL. Now I'm going to switch off between my tiny bedroom watching movies and laying in bed with his lightly boy-smelled tshirt only to turn to my even smaller studio where I'll probably listen to sad music, paint, and feel bad that no one will ever commit to being with me.

I'm going to go ahead and feel REAL sorry for myself now.

I know that he lives far away and has had bad past relationships, but hey guy, I'm NOT your old relationship! If I'm bugging you it's only because I have no idea what you're doing with this. You're not the only one who's had bad past relationships bucko! You're pretty much my other half so far! Unless I'm just having my head played with? But, if you want to be friends, say "let's just be friends" and if you want to be with me say this:

"Melissa, you mean a lot to me even though I can't see you every day. I like you and I don't want you to get snatched up by some other boy. Please be with me!"
guess what I'd say...
"OKAY!"

good lord.

I asked off for this weekend; he doesn't know.